fuck

Heres a list of my problems:
-Got a shit mark on my bio
-Failed my chem midterm
-Fucked up my first comp sci assignment
-failed every single one of my 7 math problemsets
-have another chem midterm and a math midterm coming up next week
-comp sci assignment due thursday morning, not even half done it
-math problemset due thursday, havnt even started
-behind in bio
-behind in chem
-FAR behind in math.
-having sleeping and motivation problems
-other problems that only a few of you know about

Heres what I tell myself to make myself feel better
-At least I got the class average in bio
-At least I got the class average in chem
-Its only worth 8%, no sweat
-The 20+ total problemsets are only worth 10% of the final mark
-If i study hard over the next week, I can master the material
-the assignment is going very well, and it wont fuck up this time
-the problemset isnt worth shit, no point doing it if you dont understand it
-bio can be caught up, try to understand rather than memorize
-chem... well you were fucked from the beginning! its orgo, get better than the class avg
-Math, i always have problems with, but i just need to understand it
-i need professional help for this one
-although i cant go a day without thinking about it, time will tell

Well, that helped a bit. I'm going back to my dorm to sleep. @ Bahen right now

I need a fucking 3.2 cGPA to secure my position in Bioinformatics. As of right now, I probably have around a 2.9. Fuck. Plus they only take 40 people out of like 30,000. Goddamnit.
Time to get my shit together. I want a second chance. If I had realized that I was at fucking UofT at the start of the year, I would be in a different position right now. I wouldn't have fucked around so much. I can still pull this off, I know I can.